March is always a difficult month for me. As most of you know, it is filled with a handful of terrible memories.
I’ve taken my time to write this post.
13 days to be exact.
Because that is what you need to do to get through it. Just take your time with it. It’s hard for me to talk about, as it is for all of us. It’s not that I don’t want to talk about it. It’s just hard. March is a month I step towards with uncertainty. I talk about it less and less because I’m learning to deal with it. Losing your best friend was hard for all of us and we all dealt with it differently. I’m not even sure how I dealt with it. Life seems so fuzzy for a few years. Still to this day it is hard for me to utter his name. It’s incredible how much my heart hurts when I miss him. But March makes it so much more difficult. Reminders around every corner. So I did something different this year, I embraced it. I surrounded my life with everything that he was. Down to some very significant details. That day will never get easier. I have learned that. But being with and sharing with people that I love has brought him closer to me again. He doesn’t feel so far away anymore. I love you all and I miss you terribly.

Appreciate everything you have. Because you have something. You have time…. You have emotions….. You have tears…. You have hope….. You have dreams…. I lost my best friend and I would do anything to have him back. Sorry if I have been distracted lately, but it’s March. It’s always different for me.